I came to the conclusion last week that I need to try to write more. It has always been a good outlet for me, so I might as well work on it. This first blurb will very selfishly be about me (in case all the "I's" in it is confusing).
I have been doing lots of thinking recently about where I "slot in". It's an interesting process of self-reflection and future planning, not something I am entirely comfortable with. Most of time I feel like I just wing it. Some of it is informed, some of it instinctual, mostly it's a mix of both.
I have been relatively(very)lucky about the opportunities and experiences that I have been able to pursue. I am not so humble as to think that I haven't put myself in some of the positions to explore these opportunities, but am also aware that a lot of them have come from luck (i.e. where I was born, who I was born to...).
I know that I haven't explored all of these options to their fullest. In fact, it would be fair to say that a lot of these experiences have been fleeting. My resume is a smattering of part-time work and partial commitments. That said, I do have some consistent traits. I have had a long-time partner, I have a support network of amazing family, friends and mentors that I continue to learn from, I have a passion for moving and outdoor pursuits and I love reading & learning about almost everything.
Sometimes the last point is a bit overwhelming. I envy people with a singular passion and pursuit. While I have my passions, my interests are varied. Maybe that is an unfair thought. I am sure that no one has a truly singular passion, if they did, I doubt that they would maximize the experience of it.
The one thing that I do find is that my various interests and experiences inform my passions and vice versa**. In exploring the limits of my passions, be it choosing a personally challenging event and objective to train for, exploring a new trail, I'll often use outside experiences to help me push the boundaries. For example, reading mountaineering books has influenced my decision to try and run mountains, watching the triathletes training has convinced me of the benefits of swimming and biking to help my running etc...I know that these are far from revolutionary concepts, many others have done them before me, but they are new to me, so it took some courage and a bit of a leap of faith to try them the first time.
I guess, what I am indirectly getting to, is that I think I will try (most) things once. I won't go against my personal ethics, although I might explore the edges on occasion, but a bit of exploring, even if it is only changing a routine, has always served me well. Whether the experience is positive, negative or neutral doesn't matter, since I learn from the process of trying and from all the outcomes.
If nothing else, I can't say that my life hasn't been interesting and enjoyable.
(Yikes, this is a bit of an "I am Awesome" post-oh well, give me a break, I have a giant ego to feed. Plus, this is a blog after all, aren't they mostly ego boosters disguised as "information sharing"?).
**I was convinced vice versa was spelled vis versa, but my mom told me otherwise. After debating it with her, even accusing her of using an "Americanism", convinced of my superior spelling abilities and worldy knowledge, the "Definitive Authority of the English Language", the
OED proved her correct and me wrong. I should know better than to try to argue with mom!